congratulations PTRPs.

Alright, let me set things straight.

My first course in college was Bachelor of Science in Physical Therapy at the College of Rehabilitation Sciences, University of Santo Tomas. I thought I wanted to be a doctor then but things changed or I just realized that I wanted to do something else. December of 2003, during the Christmas break, I had the feeling that I am not happy anymore and so I made one of the most unexpected decision (because I don't usually quit things), and what I would say one of the most important ever in my life, I decided to shift to a communication course and the rest as they say is history.

And so, I proudly present to you, the UST CRS BSPT Batch 2008,
officially PTRPs, 100% passed.

(at least this is my block and so many of us shifted)

i miss.

i miss the following:

1. my masscomm family. ive been through a lot of shitty stuff in college and they were there, not necessarily to help but to just sit with me, and cheer me up, with whatever jokes and simple assurances that we will get through it. and that no matter how some people made our lives a little miserable, we turn those into funny things.
"tapos na ang maliligayang araw nyo- _ _ d _ _. hulaan nyo na lang.


2. my esl friends whom i will always nag for projects and for endless requirements and who at the end of each friday, will go out with me and have fun. these people opened my eyes to sooooooo many things. the differences in our generation was an advantage as they share what they have with what i know. my esl family, i would loved to dance one party again, if only i could.
3. i miss goofing-with-spons-retreat-monster-look-for-your-school-in-barcelona days with sponsie. how i miss our chats, every working day. to whom i say good mornings and hey, im-leaving-office-na-see-you-inawhile-hi-mulong-metro-rail-torture.


4. i miss reading.

(to be continued, i promise to finish my book tomorrow at 1700hrs)

once in a while.

once in a while its comfort to open your heart and know someone is genuinely listening.

once in a while it makes me feel more human when i open my ears to listen to someone and actually say something that makes sense.

once in a while, it's funny to find yourself walking in the rain, at the end of a very long day, crying, because of something you haven't thought of for a while.

once in a while, it's necessary to realize that all that shit makes us stronger and grateful that we have small things in life that makes it worth living.

once in a while, we need to remember that we can't have it all.

and once in a while, a sigh, a smile, a tap, a hand, a hug makes all the difference.

nothing will ever be the same.

change is inevitable. we either adapt to change or we get left behind.

- meredith grey, season 4 episode 1 of grey's anatomy.

i wonder why people are afraid of change even if know that probably, it's about the fear of not knowing what to happen next, or what should be expected. and in the long run, they forget to enjoy the thrill of the unexpected.

we have all changed and CHANGE is a big word. it's about taking your first few steps when mom or dad used to hold your hand. it's about holding a spoon first time after being fed all your life. it's about sleeping alone in your room after spending mornings and nights beside someone. it's about using a ballpen and you can't erase what you wrote when you're used to mistakes because a pencil and eraser will go hand in hand. it's about checking if you have a letter online and not the mailbox or the mailman. it's about dealing with choices you have to make, it's about growing up, it's about changing.

i have my own set of fears on changing and i think that's ok.

why do we fear change? maybe because of the thought that after this, nothing will ever be the same and we'll miss it.

and sometimes, "change is everything" - meredith grey, season 4 episode 1 of grey's anatomy.